Allanah Star

So this is my moment. My moment to tell you all about me, all the torrid little details...LOL. Actually there isn't much that is torrid about my life...but plenty that I am sure you will find surprising-if not interesting.

I guess I should begin by telling you the obvious-that is the physical....well the physical self I have evolved into. I am 24 years old-5' 7". 127 pds- 40DD-24-36- and oh yes, by the way I am a pre operative male to female transsexual. Now once and a while I will get the question "What is a shemale?" or "What is pre-op?" Take notes because I am about to tell you...A transsexual is someone who is born one sex and chooses to transgress into another. Now, a pre-op transsexual is someone such as myself, who has taken hormones, lives as a woman, has had plastic surgery to make her face more feminine, but has not had the final surgery to complete the transformation (in layman terms, she still has a penis).

A post op transsexual is someone who has already undergone sexual reassignment surgery and no longer has a penis but a vagina. The term "shemale" I believe was coined by the adult sex industry to describe someone as myself-So go ahead, call me a transsexual, a shemale, a pre-op-just don't call me by my birth given name :).

I must say that I am so lucky live in the United States..I was born in the Caribbean in the island of Cuba and because of political reasons my family migrated to this country when I was five years old. Call it destiny, but I certainly couldn't live the way I do in Cuba right now-so really, I am so lucky that every day I am able to live my dream as the person I always wanted to become.

Now this dream of mine was not easily brought to life. I grew up in Miami and spent the first 16 years of my life not knowing who or what I was. Basically I was an overly effeminate child-confused about her identity; I was never exposed to homosexuality or trans sexuality. In fact, I really did not realize that I was not a girl until I was in kindergarten and the other school children told me so. See, I always felt like a girl-and always thought I was a girl. As a child, one of my biggest fantasies was to somehow, someday evolve into this perfectly groomed house wife. Well, I am far from being a housewife today but you get the point.

So at 16 years old I came out of the closet-sort of speak. At that time I thought I was gay. However, I really never fit into the traditional gay world because, even though I felt more comfortable expressing myself, I was very effeminate, wore make-up and dressed in androgynous type clothes. Now people always ask me: What type of men do you go out with, gay men? The answer is no. Gay men like MEN-period. Why do you think so many gay men are so athletic and have such Adonis type physical figures? Gay men are attracted to masculinity-while they might appreciate my femininity or beauty-transsexuals are not their sexual preference. Basically, I date straight men.

Obviously, a man who is attracted to me has to like femininity and is attracted to a female appearance. I can now address another question I get asked constantly: "If I am attracted to transsexuals, does that make me gay?" Mind you I am not a trained psychotherapist to answer this question, and a lot of transsexuals have different opinions about this-so I will give you mine. The answer is: WHO CARES? I mean really, who cares-life is too short to be worried about what and if something you enjoy classifies you as something. Please, take my advice, just enjoy your life and experience what you want to experience-don't rule or judge your life based on some social paranoia.

Estranged from gay life and throwing caution to the wind, at 20 years old I decided to become a woman. This is much easier said than done. In the beginning I wasn't a very pretty girl. Thank God for cosmetic surgeons and personal persistence! Self commitment is my greatest quality. I persisted, even though many of my friends told me I would never succeed-this was something I knew I had to do.

The choice certainly led me through a difficult journey, becoming a transsexual is one of the most difficult decisions anyone has to make. It is an extremely expensive, time consuming, and an emotionally draining process. But the outcome is extremely rewarding. As I said earlier, realizing my dreams has been the utmost reward.

First, I started on hormones, began to have plastic surgery (now I adore plastic surgery), started electrolysis and had injectable silicone body treatments. Then I began to live my day to day life as a woman. Let me tell you- I enjoy being a girl...I love shopping, I love doing my nails, I love doing my hair, I just love all feminine things. I am very high maintenance when it comes to my appearance. I work out, tan regularly, watch what I eat and I love being glamorous and dressing up. It is definitely very important to me to look my best. However, I do believe that ones personality is their best asset, and no matter how beautiful one might me, an over inflated or huge ego can be the most unattractive thing and make the most beautiful person seem so ugly. I believe being down to earth, nice, and friendly is extremely important! So be nice!

Luckily, my appearance has evolved into the image I had hoped it would. I modeled my look after a very voluptuous type of woman. I love women like Jane Mansfield, Raquel Welch, Marilyn Monroe-those type of women that were so feminine and sexy. Those 50's icons are my beauty ideal. The minute I saw Jane Mansfied make her entrance in The Girl Cant Help It- I knew that's exactly what I wanted to be! Jane Mansfield is my beauty icon.

Even though I achieved the look of those screen sirens, I never got to achieve the other success those women had and that was to be an actress. That would have been my second biggest dream-to be a successful actress. Instead, I got involved in the art of female impersonation. I performed in shows for several years, worked in nightclubs all over, competed in female impersonating pageants, worked at several celebrity parties, and had a worked at Lucky Chengs (the drag queen restaurant) for many years.(I even did some TV and talk show stints) I really had a wonderful time performing and doing shows, I wish there was more of that out there. But the money involved does not compensate the money you have to spend on wardrobe and costumes, and everything else. So I kind of retired from that, though I perform from time to time-and pursued an exciting career in the adult industry!

Now let me share with you some of my hobbies-as I mentioned I love plastic surgery. I have had about 11 different cosmetic surgeries and over 30 different cosmetic procedures( I have had just about everything done, except my toes :), and I plan to continue. Some people accuse me of being plastic-but that is OK. I am very proud of having cosmetic procedures. I also love to travel, I love the theater, musicals, films, classic films, going out to diner, shopping and more shopping, museums, collecting shoes, modeling, reading, and quiet evenings at home. To be honest, I am not really a party girl anymore. I did my partying years ago, and since I do not smoke, and I really do not drink-night clubs sometimes bore me. But hey I am not a nun, I go out to that great party here and there.

By now you must be wondering if I am single-why yes I am. I am very single. Any eligible well to do men out there? LOL. I do get asked a lot what type of men I like-and the answer is nice ones! I like all types-as long as they are nice. Nothing turns me on more than intelligence, personality, and manners. A gentleman always wins in my book!

Currently I live in Manhattan-where my days are spent, working out, tanning, working on this website (dreaming up new fantasies for all of you), and enjoying this wonderful city in which I have grown so much to love. I am so grateful that with everything that is going on in the world I am able to live the way I do and learn something new about myself every single day. I truly hope that you enjoyed reading a little bit about me. Please enjoy the site and feel free to E-mail and ask me whatever you like!

Kisses Allanah